woah.. cant believe how unfocused i am. its freaknig ass scary. i have a huge obligations paper on monday and im not even halfway through the revision for it. and what the !!!! am i doing ? ON THE NET, wathcing AMERICAN PYSCHO, going out for DINNER, chatting in the kitchen , DAYDREAMING.. arghhhhhhh. i know to all who havent heard from me, ive literally confined myself to holborn for the past week, my phonesbit wonky, my emails screwed, so if I HAVENT BOTHERED TO FIX anythnig till after the exams, so really sorry if ive seemed rude or uncaring.

arghhhhhhhhhh. what is wrong with me. learn your CONSIDERATION AND ESTOPPEL girl, it has to stay in your brain. and i stillc ant get my head around all those problem questons, so ITS TIME YOU STARTED DOING THEM????? really feel l ike kicknig myself, i need adivol . man, really do, keep thinknig of summer and all the random things im going to do. but what ? im stressing myself out cuz i cant concentrate. its really consuming me. im so worried, but i just cant seem to force myself to get my ass down to focus on pushing everything into my brain. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

sorry, know this is a really angsty, post, ubt i havent really been around there in the past weeks or so, so decided to get it all out of me in the vague hope that it'd help me concentrate. helpppppppppppppppp

on a nice note, went for dinner at punjab yesterday again, except john and nic were being theri usual semi racist, 100% oafish selves and making a commotion in the restaurant. WHATS NEW, before trooping off to my room to watch american pyshco. what productivity.

i really have to get myself away and focus. fern, DO IT PLEASE, do it for yourself
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