havent been here in a while.

taking another extended break from the intricacies of hegel, locke, foucalt, hoffmaster to rest my waery, but not so tired eyes. spent a distracted afternoon trying to studyi in the kitchen. didnt really succedd, but im promising myself im going to press on tonight anf try to do up that chapter on human body commodification..

on a happy note, girl, im really happy for you. that text from nolly just shone through like a ray of sun light inthrought the clouds, absolutely made my day. yesterday at least. hope you find your happiness, and treasure it while you have the chance to.

cant seemt o get myself to focus, keep getting sidetracked by all these random things. shailey asked me about john today. i said i dont know what i am doing. right. sums up my emotions perfectly, not just that, but everything else, about work, prupose, ability, potential, rationalisation of thought, irrationalisation of thought. sometimes my world is just such a confused place, with out direction or , perception. Sometimes i wish metaphorically, i had the eyes of a hawk, to spot the true from the false, hte irrelevant from the serious, the important from the unimportant. If humans had superhuman capabilites, (an oxymoron in itself), that would be what i would wish for? or would i not?

i cant say for a fact. but in the times of confusion, i just look at people around me, or back home, and wish wistfully, nostalgically, or even maybe not so nostalgically, that my world was much more carefree place that what it is now.